"Love taught me to lie, Life taught me to die"

(my favourite 2 photos taken on the class outing night)

I was clearing my room and I found this letter hidden right at the corner of this untouched drawer. so weird, coz it's written by me to someone. so why is it with me then? hmmm

How silly I was now that I can look back and laugh at myself Ha Ha Ha

It started off like this..

Hey. I think we should just end our ties here since you don't wish to be together. then what for I still hold on? I don't get what you mean by not breaking up but we are still together. let's just have a clear breakup. doesn't all the things I did ever meanth anything to you? there's so many things I want to say (but it just can't be explained).

it hurts to hold on, thus I chose to let go although it hurt more letting go someone I love. you told me not to be sad. how to? I can close my eyes to things I don't want to see but I can't close my heart to things I don't want to feel. when I said I love you, I meant I have never felt what I had felt for you. I wish I have the guts to walk away and forget about everything but I can't cause I know you won't come back to me anymore. I can't force you to love me as much as I can't stop myself from loving you. you changed so much, I wish you knew how much you've changed. I wonder if I'd changed you, if your life is different because of me. because mine was different because of you.

Goodbye. I never wanna see you again. I don't want to be your friend and there is no need for me to stay and lose myself to you. but just before I go, if you really don't want me, don't act as if you want me to stay because I'm going to be strong to let you go. I can't talk to you anymore. when I talk to you, it make me realise how much I love you and when I realise how much I love you and I can't have you, that makes me love you even more.

please dont hurt me anymore. please don't make me cry again. at least be there to wipe away my tears if you're doing it. I have been living through this for 2 years. I had it enought. Please, I beg, stop hurting me. my heart really hurts because of you. thank you.

for this last time, I love you.

Can anyone be sillier than that?!! so much for doing all these..

X

Additional peektures:

Theme: Green

jie jie & I did the decos:D

I did the flowers too (talented yea haha)

Jeremiah!

Debbie and mom

ku ma & her dance friends

"Life is like drawing without an eraser."



Get ready everybody it's party time!
ku ma's surprise party went well like I'd expected it to be. it was so grand & all (fyi, jie jie's a wedding planner) Ok. so, jie jie picked me up early in the morning after her trip down to the florist and then we started working on the decorations all the way till the party started. There were balloons floating around, buffet, albums of photos since the day she was born till now showing on tv repeatedly, live saxophone performance, dance, cake, videos from her 2 sons who're overseas and even got the ice cream cart uncle to station at the party for an hour! how cool is her party?

I will upload the photos t9.
till then

"Love comforteth like sunshine after rain."



FUCK I HATE STUDYING
I'm only done with 3 chapters of econs and 2 of POM........
none of stats, none of BA2 and none of Marketing
Manxxxzzzzxxxxxx give me a break

on a lighter note,
Bestie & Van crashed Tp on friday and attended my boring Accounting lecture. they were happily counting down for the last 8 mins of lecture and almost fainted when I told them that my lecture's 2 hours long hahaha anyway we caught Four Christmas after school. funny talking show. Van & I just couldn't stop laughing when the baby's head got hit against the cupboard (recalling scene haha) Threaded our eyebrows *eyebrows moving up down up down* hehehe & caught up with Cheryl after a thrillionz years:)

Caughted Wildchild few days before. super bimbo I like:D

Watched Snakes On Plane followed up by Nancy Drew on HBO just a few hours ago...
Now I understand why do I always have to burn midnight oil.
god bless.

Time check.
Time for bed.
Goodnighty!

To my dearest Buddy, I found the song.